This past weekend I went back up to Townsend and stayed over Saturday night.  It was a great weekend. Some of the usual activities took place: watching tennis (the US Open is on), playing tennis yesterday afternoon for a few hours, a game of Texas Hold 'Em, and plenty of metal.  An added bonus was getting to hear the finished drum tracks to the long lost second Armory album, tentatively titled "Empyrean Realms."  Not only did I hear the drum tracks, but I also got to see the bands' two guitarists start jamming on almost half the album.  They already sound like they know the songs inside and out.  I can't imagine how they'll sound when bass, keyboards, and vocals are also finished.  Alas, I may have to wait some time, given all the interruptions of life and various commitments they all have.
   That's about it for another Labor Day weekend.  Hopefully tomorrow I hear back from Clark, and even more hopefully the news is in the affirmative....

 I found this through the random journal link and near pissed myself.

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great friend wanted
Mildly socially awkward male seeking skilled friend. Must have high emotional tolerance. Recreational inebriation a plus but not required. Free time should be abundant (the more the better) and an affinity for video games and/or music is highly recommended. Willingness to "play therapist" due to recent loss also very much a plus. Applications currently being accepted. 
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 Today was Kya's birthday. Hard to believe her age is in double digits now. It feels like not too long ago she was screaming from her playpen. Being around kids reminds you that you are aging as well. I suppose I'd better get used to that.

Kya is so funny. She says she wishes she could be turning eleven instead of ten. I asked her why and she said that if she were eleven, she would only be TWO years away from being thirteen rather than three. I asked her why she didn't just wish she was thirteen then. She didn't have an answer for that.

Kids are great about birthdays. It's so exciting and wonderful. It's a shame that most people lose that. All day I'd randomly say "Happy Birthday!" and she would just get this glow and smile.

I think she had a pretty good day. She received many phone calls from friends and family. I ended up talking to the family members who called. I hadn't spoken with my brother for a while, so that was nice. We are both desperate for this year to be over, for different reasons. I also talked to my Dad. I was glad he didn't ask me any tough questions.

 

 life feels pretty nasty lately.
I hate where I am.
I don't see any exit routes.
I want tomorrow to be a better day.
I don't want anymore nightmares.
I want to feel good about myself.

Why do I get myself into these tricky, tricky situations?
Courtnie knows what I'm talking about.
So does Megan.
And probably everyone else.



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the weather is starting to turn. i dragged my heavy ass comforter out of the cellar last night because i'm too stubborn to close the windows in my room. the thought that keeps popping into my head is that i now get to make copious amounts of soup.

i need to spend time in the garden.

Making new friends is so hard
but very rewarding
i need to stop sleeping all the time and drinking tons of coffee
im not sleeping at night and going crazy
i cant be stuck in houses anymore
i think too much




im getting really scared